Midnight thoughts

Well its 2 am and I have a million thoughts running through my mind. I am wondering about life and where I am headed. I am going to be embarking on a journey that will make me grow into a professional photographer. I am going to be doing this all by correspondence. This is really scary to me because I have never done anything like this with school. I have always been the kind of girl who sits a the front of the class room, looking like a keener. I have always had a passion for taking photos took some classes in high school but never went any further. Ever since I purchased a Canon Rebel that uses film that passion has returned. I know its all about trial and error with film and i have seen where I can improve. I recently had the opportunity to take photos with a digital camera that my best friend let me use while on my vacation to Utah and San Fransisco. I don`t have any of those photos yet but hopefully soon and I will explain them to all that read this. Any way I really want to get a digital camera to see my results quicker. The school I will be taking it through is New York institution of photography. I have a friend that will be taking this will me, we both have this passion

I recently went on a photo shoot of Twilger Park and the Legislative building. Some of the shots of me were not pleasant but here goes nothing.

Me and Barb a friend of mine were driving around and spotted this Monument. I thought it looked interesting.

This is my friend Barb, she was a lot of fun when we were out shooting photos. There are some funny ones of her that make me laugh and brings out her personality.

I thought this was funny... Its locked and no one is home.

My first thoughts of this pictures was humpty dumpty.

Every body was Kungfu Fighting.

We hiked through some muddy hills, walked through ant hills got get right by the water to get these shots. I will do almost any thing to get shots likes this. I only wish I had a digital and a telephoto lens.

The trails were captivating and inspiring. Its amazing how you are in a city when you are in the parks around Edmonton, it dosen`t seem like your in a city when you can get this close to nature.

The Funnest thing we saw that day was Asparagus growing randomly in the forest by the river. It was such a shock we took a picture of it.

The to the ledge we went, one of my favorite

places to take photos of people.

The Parliament building. I love the Arctic of this building.

Barb and Me doing our thing for a photo op.

I really like this tree it has aways inspired me. We did take pictures of us in the tree but I don`t like how I trued out in it. Man it was a pain to get into that tree.

I love this pic of me I actually look good.

I was trying to be creative with this one but I didn`t quite get it right maybe next time. In this picture it is Barb and Megan.

My first Family portered I don`t think i did too bad. I know this family because i lived with the girl in the photo for about a year before she got married. Now they have a beautiful son.

The was a group of grads that were taking pictures and I thought i could get a great shot of all of them. They all looked fabulous. The ledge is a popular place to take weddings, grads and family photos.

Well I am hoping that some of these shots have potential and that maybe one day i will be able to take even better photos. These are my thoughts at new 3 am PS just to make by friend happy i had to post lots of photos. LOL

Whos looking out for us

Well I have been thinking about my brother who recently got into a car accident and how he walked away from it. I am hoping all is well with him soon. He is a great brother and has a wonderful girl friend that is and will be nursing him back to health. I am reminded of how we all have somebody looking out for us in our darkest, helpless, and loneliest moments in our lives. I just wanted to put it out there that we all should remember what we have garden angles.

Looking back

Well thinking about this past year I have discovered that there has been some interesting things. One i Love once again to a new place which it helped me to regain some happy thoughts because i was becoming a downer due to my situation.

The house i moved into which I like to call the Geto house. Now the reason for its name is because it looked like it the sixty's blow up in it because of the horrendous painting job of bright orange and yellow. I haven't even got to the kitchen which as florescent green I swear they are painted counter tops. the worst part about the house is the wood window frames with the window panes built into to it.

I discovered face book which Intel's me to keep in touch with my friends and make new ones as well. the thing that surprised me the most about face book was that my mother joined. granted she only checks her account once and a while but its great to see her keeping up with the times.

Well i felt this year i need to make a change in my jobs because i wasn't being challenge anymore so i went part time working for catholic social services to working full time with Cheers by design/CEO doing wedding, galas, and corporate events. Well turns out i was given too much responsibility for one person and by the end of the year decided that i wanted to go back to school. So i went down to part time and looked a schooling.

No there are some sad moments of the my year and the is the loss of my dear cat Ezra. she went out side and never came back. The cat came back the very next day didn't happen. I believe she has adopted a new family and I don't believe i will every see her again. Not to fear I got a new cat form a family that could no longer have the cat, her name is Chloe. She went into heat just before i was leaving for Christmas vacation and I left my roommate and a friend to listen to her meow all day long. She is awesome, she plays fetch, loves to cuddle, and play. I don't know if you have ever see the "Sparta" cat on YOU TUBE but i think she is like that cat because she always bits me. Speaking of YOU TUBE i discovered Achmed the dead terrierst. Jeff Dunham is so funny.

Yes i went home for Christmas and it was great. I got to see family i haven't seen in about 9 years. We laugh, cried, and my mom shed some tears of joy because she now retired from working at the bank. Oh and my brother is now engaged to a wounderful person and it happen on Christmas day. There wedding is going to be in the summer of 2008. They are talking about a gumboot wedding what ever that is. I pesonaly don't like gumboots because of the horendus memories of lossing them in quicksand mud as a child.

Very frusterated with work

I really don't have much to say...... I have been working in a group home for the past four years and had a lot of changes during that time. I love working with children and family to help them gain a better relationship with in their family.
Over the last 6 months our house and plenty of other houses have had major changes to their homes. I would say one of the hardest change is going from a structured group home dealing with more negative behaviours such as phycialy attacking staff, clients and property. To a home that is less structured and deals with learning disability's that vary from ADD, ODD, reading comprehension, and very low fuctiontiong children that need the structuer. Its not really the learning challenges that is hard to deal with, it's the parents. They placed their child in care because they are unable to deal with the challenges themselves. I am a person who can take a lot of negative things thrown at me, but the one thing i really don't like is manipulation of things. What am I doing here?

Crazy Neighbors

Well it has been a week since our last incident with our Neighbors, and once again he was intoxicated and tried to break into our house. This time he went to his house sooner but we were inside the house getting freaked out. So my roommate called the police they came and hauled his butt out of the house to the police station. this all happen at 11pm. Then at 2:30 am our other neighbors from the same house came to house and started to bang on our door. My roommate and I open the door slowly and asked who he was. He said he was the neighbors and wanted to apologizes for his roommates behaviour. But it didn't stop there he was trying to justify his roommates actions by saying he is a harmless guy and that he just didn't know where he was. I simply said you don't need to get drunk to have a good time and if you are so drunk that you can't remember where you are, you need to go to AA meeting or you kick him out of your house. His replay was that he is not that kind of person. He didn't like having the police coming to his house. We don't like feeling like we are being broken in on. Well His replay was I don't' like having dog mess on my yard by i don't call the police and we simply said that having dog mess on you Yard is not that same as having someone try and break in to your house. He agreed. He was getting more and more verbally aggressive with us so we just closed that door and the next thing I knew I saw him smash our scree door window. We were so scared at that point that we called the police, land lord, and our Bishop. After the whole ordeal we went to say at someone House for the night. But I am thinking if this continues I am moving out.

I am a Hero (I believe)

Well last Friday I was not having the best day ever. I think I am P.M.S., off medication reactions, or just too stressed out. Any way I was sent home from work early so I decided to get a Blessing to help me feel better. I later went out with my friend Colleen (she is the one the helped me get better at snowboarding). As we were out Colleen gets this phone call from my roommate saying there is emergency at the house. She informs me that there is some guy on our yard saying "stay way or I will hurt you" My roommate get the friend she was with to come into the house. She calls the Land Lords and then the police because the guy tried to break into our house. So I come to the house with my car. I drive on to the yard and honked my horn. I said to this guy that the cops have been called and get off my property now. The guy was mumbling something, I need know what he was saying. So I asked if he was knew where he was. I informed him of the addressed he was at. He got up and staggered to the house next to us and went into the house. My roommate and my friend were still scared even after the fact the police came and the neighbour's came and talked to us. The guy was to come by and apologizes to us because he recked the screen door's and scared us (but not me) but he has not don't it. I believe I am a hero because i got him off the yard

Snowboarding ouch

Well I had an opportunity to try snowboarding for the first time. I got go with with my church (The Church of Jesus Christ of Later Day saints) as an activity for the YSA (young Single Adult). I had got a lesson to learn the basics. I must say I became very frustrated because I was unable to do some of the things. But when I was with my friend Colleen she already knows how to snowboard. I really was able to learn how to do it. I can say that I can snowboard because I was able to get down the hill two times. I wiped out really badly and know my tail bone really hurts. I think i bruised it. I also have a scratches from getting snow up my back so many times. I really want to get a snow board and keep on trying. Its a really fun sport once you get the hang of it. I must say I am not ready for the black diamond but one day I will be.

The pictures are not of me but think of me always on the ground trying to get up. I know I did get up and I did go down the hill two times. It just a visual picture and just replace it people with me.