Insomia

Well it would seem that there are a few things preventing me from falling asleep tonight. First being the fact that i spent the about three hours with a car dealer trying to figure out if I could get a Nissan Versa. They are only going to give me auto windows, locks, and key less entry, tinted window and car starter. Turns out that it is really expensive car and out of my price range. How ever I really like the way it handles on the road. The other car is the Hyundai Elontra Touring. I really like how this car handles on the road as well. Its a lot bigger then what my old car was and it has cruse control, A/C, heated mirrors and seats, axillary outlet for IPOD, Auto lock, auto windows, Heated rear wiper, tinted windows, car starter and Cell phone plug in not just through the cigarette lighter. Seems like a no brainier i guess but its really stressing me out. I think its because my old car was great and I had just finish paying it off and it gets hit and also put in a new stereo.
I am also very stressed out about finding a job. I have applied but didn't get any of them. I am just not sure what I can apply for. Some people think school, advertisement, and Secretary. All i want to do is find home for children. The government is Blind if they thing they can do a job with only 3 people when my company did it with 14. IF funny how the government want to cut back on sending and the first thing the take away from is the social human resources. Are we not suppose be helping our own people around us.
I am just trying to keep my self from falling apart.

Car accident

Well today was a productive day and achieved a lot. After work had planed to pick up some stuff for my roommate for dinner and then go snowboarding with my friend Steven. Steven was teaching me how to get comfortable on doing down the hill and to practise what he had taught me on our previous lesson. I felt I was doing alright, then all of a sudden we here this crash. I was part way down the hill when I here Steven say some guy just hit a tree, oh he hit a car.... Alison I think he hit your car. I was in a mad rush to get my board off my feet, when I finally got my board off I ran and dropped my board and hoped the fence to have a look. All I was trying to see was how bad the car was. I just couldn't believe my car was hit.

This is what I saw as I walked up to my Car. I was like my poor car and in shock that this had happen. I was so happy that every one was okay and that no one was injured. The guy that hit me asked me if my car was okay to be moved. I was about to move it and then thought No I need photos for my Insurance.

I was also though it was weird that my car ended up angled like this, it makes me wounder how fast he was going.

Apparently this is where he started to lose control over his car and never regained control. I think its about two or three car lengths that my car moved Crazy.

The car on the left had side saw every thing because the guy was trying to pass her on the right hand side and hit the ice fish tailed, she thought he had it under control but he didn't.

The guy that hit me talking on the phone to get his roommate and possibly talk to his insurance people

His car is not drivable any more.

My Poor car!!!! It funny I am making my last payment on this car this month. I had had someone hit me in the bumper a few years ago because she backed up into me with a trailer hitch attached to her vehicle. She was already and willing to get my bumper fixed. I guess it was just a mater of time before someone else came along and hit me. I phoned this lady and told her the good news for her but not for me.

Photography Classes

Well I have been taking a photography class. I have been taking pictures all manual and tyring different things with my camera.

I have know this girl for about a two years. She is a fun loving carefree, out going, and beautiful. I had a photo shoot with an amazing girl who was willing to be crazy and try different shots. She was fun to shot.

This was really cool to shoot, wanting to have the feeling of light in a dark place. It was fun to do because of the mirror and candle

I really like the capture of distance in her eyes.

This one seems to the esens of light

We wanted to have some glamor pictures that would portray the Gap and Posh look


This was a vision of sheer posh of glamor


I like this shot because it shows that she is in deep thougth right before the storm.
This is a great photo because its captures the essence of the beauty of before the storm

I really like working with this client she was so much fun and the her beauty makes the picture. She got me to think of things that I wouldn't have though of to do.

A tribute to Amazing, wonderful Women

I have been thinking about all the blessing I have had in my life. I had an overwhelming feeling come over me and the women that are listed here all came to my mind. I would say most of them are sent from my Heavenly Father that knows me. Its not so much the number of women in my life that have I have been blessed by. Its how they have affected me.

I would like to pay tribute to a few of them. First and foremost is my Mother. For some, that read this know that I am adopted and I was raised by a great person. My mother has wisdom, insight, humble, endurance, and Love beyond her years. She knew that I was to be apart of her family even before she knew. My mother stopped at nothing so that I can have the best education possible. My mother loves to read and I have always loved that she educates her mind all the time. She has passed it to me because I love being educated. She always encourage me to never settle for anything that you want. The sky is the limit. My mother has taught me that no mater what happened that you need to endure to the end. I know my mother will always be there Even thought the eternity's. She taught me to seek for eternally family.

Second is my grade five resource room Teacher. I can honestly say that she is a marvelous person. She has showed me courage, strength, kindness, selfless and charity. This Teacher is a teacher that would go the extra mile for a student. She has shown such sacrifice of her own personal life to help all her students. She would call this being a work alcoholic and being a perfectionist. I don't see it that way. I would go and help her to get of the school before 7 o'clock on a Friday so that she could have some time to her self. I say she has strength and courage because of her own personal struggles. I have seen her come through with a new brightness upon her and its demonstrated through her husband and children. She is full of so many talents that it cease to amaze me what else she is capable of. She was one of the person who has helped me through some of my things with out showing a hesitation. She taught me that its okay to sacrifice your time for some one else

Third is my friend who is also a teacher. The words that describe this person is funny, Solidity, wisdom and endurance. A single mom who is devoted to helping her children active what they want in life (with in reason). If I have ever seen a women who has had trial have trial in the life its is her, in yet she has positive out look on life. She has taught me that what you put out into the world is what you are going to get back. That takes will power to keep your mind focused on the good things in life. She never gave up on me, for example when I was failing Social studies and had to re due the class. She took the time out to tutor me because she and I both knew I could pass this class. She has always been there when I need someone to chat to about my crazy life. She taught me to look forward not back wards

This friend I have known since I was 12 years old watch her raise a family of five boys. I look at this woman and think a great example of virtue, patience, love and charity. I remember her helping get my young women's Medallions. She was determined that I would get them before I left young woman's. She knew I could do these things. I would go over to here house to work on these goals and you know what she and I did complete them all. All I can say is that is women is good example because she got me to actually attend Young Woman's camp for my first and last time in Young woman. I know she is always there for me and helps me keep things in perspective and real. I am great full for her example and her children. She taught me to show humility.

WOW this friend is also a teacher but retired. I think I really connect well with teachers. She is inspired by divine inspirations, humble, talented, and charitable. This woman is remarkable who is and has devoted her time in helping those that are less fortunate by making baby packages for baby's that are in need. She is inspired by the spirit because I recall a time when I first met this outstanding woman. She was specking to our congregation and I knew she was specking to me. Even though I never met her. I know that she too was sent to me to guide me though what I need to go though. She has such strong values and she is always teaching or reminding me what I need or could be doing to help myself out. She is the kind of person that her home is always open. She taught me to endure to the end.

My Best friend is an outstanding woman of faith, virtue, endurance, strength and unconditional love. I have know this women for a long time. She was one of the girls in my life that had always been there when I need anything. We have so much in common. I believe we knew each other before we came to earth because of our instant friendship. She is the kind of person to never give up on someone and hopes that they will see their true potential. She has a faith in that is reflected in her countenance. I admire her for her strength, courage and endurance. She has taught me true faith.

I can say that all these women have given me something I will be able to pass on to my children when I have them. They have shown me what pure love is, pure charity is, true beauty is, humility is, Faithfulness is and have Saved me in some form or another. No mater what is happening in my life I knew that I could turn to any one of these women and have a safe haven to go to if i need one. I know that I am the person I am to day because of these women. Each of them have touched my heart and I only pray that I can be able to touch the lives around me.

Blogging edicet

I have recently come a cross a blogger that I was really disappointed in. This Blogger was venting and complaining about a gift they had received from a family member. They Clearly didn't like the gift and thought it was tacky. I know everyone is entitled to there own option in Blogging but I do how ever realizes that there needs to be some edicet for this Blogger. So I have thought of edicet rules

1) Be Smart, Blogging is not for personal Journal such as Venting Frustration about friends and family.

2) Be Positive, Dissing your in laws gift is a BIG NO NO

3) Be Funny, Tell funny stories that happen but leave out hurtful things

4) Be True, would you like to read things about you that are mean

5)Be Humble, Think before you write

6) Be Grateful for what you have and remember its for eternity

I have a few things to say in regards to this particular blogger "C" If bogging is for venting your frustrations out for the whole world to see and the expectation is that No one will add comments to the blog. This saddens me due to the lack of understanding this blogger has. I say GET A JOURNAL. Also the next time the thought come in your mind to write about a familt menber that may come across negatively think of this question " Is my blog more important to me then my Eternal family" If your blog is that important to bolgger "C", I feel so sad for this blogger, because they have lacked the understanding of how to be kind and understanding about those around them.... They are selfish and only think of them selves.

I know I have broken a few of my edicet rule but this it to prove a point. I do not care if this come back and bites me in the BUTT bring it on LOL

Church Callings

Well as some of you may know I have recently moved into a family ward. Granted in has been a good experiences thous so far. Things are quite different from a singles ward to a family ward one being children in sacrament meeting. Yes I love kids and they make a world of difference to the meeting. When I was first coming to the ward I though watch me get a calling in the primary. Low and Behold that is exactly what happen in this situation.








Let me tell you the how this came about.





I was looking for a home in this particular ward and had informed my friend who just happened to be the primary president. When things were looking like I didn't have a place to move. I was given a place to stay with her and her lovely home this included all of my personal belongings as well. I was so blessed by this act of charity. My stay there was wonderful and great. I was able to build new relationships and stronger ones with other people.





During my stay there we would joke about what kind of calling I would get and that she could use me in the primary. I said couldn't teach and teaching is very scary. she simply replied that I could reach and that is not that difficult.





After things had settled and I did find a place to live. That week she approached me by asking if I would mind giving my thoughts and my option about a child that had recently moved into the ward with autistic behaviours. Right then I thought to my self after meeting her "watch me get this calling". She also wondered what I thought if she would put my name in with other people she had in mind. I really don't remember what I said except that I didn't want to be isolated from the ward because I didn't know very many people.


It funny how things all work out because I was so afraid of getting a teaching calling that I was thinking about teaching a lot... I was at church one day after moving my things out of there house and into my new place. When the primary president gave a talk in church regarding teaching the primary children and the manuals for each level . After that talk I informed her that I was okay with teaching also that I learned and like her talk.





Well after church a member of the bishop brick l asking me to meet with him next week.... I knew full well that it was a calling. I also had though its going to be in the primary. I waited and anticipated what the calling was going to be all week. Like it says in the bible and it came to pass that I had received a call and the call was to be a primary teacher, but in a special way. The child I had met a few weeks back was the child I am going to be teaching. Granted I was scared and thought first why me, what could I possible teach this child. I stayed up late worrying about the first day and how this was going to work. With butter fly in my stomach I fell asleep hoping and praying that I wouldn't screw it up.





I had met with this child the day before i was going to be set apart. I found out some things about the child and things she liked and didn't like... I wanted to be knowable so i bought books to aid me in my understanding of Autism. Not only form a parents view but a siblings view.





This has been very helpful in this journey. I have learned thus so far that life is too short. That if we are running to fast every thing is just a blur on fast ward. We need to stop look, listen and see that little things that may be passing us by. this is a very had thing for me because I am so used to being the person to go go go go and not to stop, look, listen and see whats really happening around me... not so much work but MY live.





I can honestly say that this calling is be a blessing to me so far. I hope and pray that it will bless others as well.

Life changes

This past year as been a eye opening experiences trying to except the fact that I am single and turning 30. I don't really think is excepting the age thing but truly feeling like you are mature and know were you are going in this life. I have always thought that my life would be full of children always running around me laughing, crying and playing games or tricks on me. All though the kids I have been around have either been work kids and other peoples kids. It has taught me to be more understanding, patent, excepting, and non judgmental.

How do measure someones maturity, responsibility and knows where there life is going? I always thought I that I was person that is grow up but I have come to the conclusion that no one ever really grown up or knows where there life is headed. I think especially this last month that I have had to rely on the Lord to help me find the job I wanted. The really challenging part was when I had to move and there was a place all planed out but then everything went to the wolves. I almost lost it and thought this is it I am never going to find what I want, I am going to have to live out of my car. This was really scary thought to me. I know that would never really happen because I know lots of people in the city. I am at a wonderful home that full of everything I would want in my own home (one day I will have my own House), it clean, inviting, loving people, understanding people, almost a worry free feeling when I am here. I have nothing but respect for the Hirsches. I kept trying to look for places and one day after someone came up to me and said it looks like your going to have a nervous break down. I simply relayed that might just happen. I explained my situation and two days later I have place to live (except with out my cat),. This is really hard for me because I am lonely and found out that I really have NO true friends any more. So once again I am faced with trying to find something I truly like doing. I am learning to live my life and not let life come to me. I have always had the hope of life starting after you get married or have kids but NO it doesn't work that way.
I have so many dreams that I would like and will fulfill one day, I think it trying to except the time line that's not always that time line you like and see for your self. I think keeping the faith is one my biggest trials here on this earth and knowing that the Lord knows me, Loves and wants me to be something he knows I can be. In my Heart that's what I want to be.